Now I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Dropped the family off at the airport, waiting for grandpa to pick up the kids and then I have the house to myself. Oh life, you are good right now.

Hola my lovey doveys,

I write because I'm mad, I'm mad because of...well it doesn't matter. Better yet, I write because I can and because I being mad made me realize a lot of things.

Firstly and foremostly, I love myself. Not nearly enough mind, I've still got a long ways to go. But I have finally seen that I love myself. I am able to accept the me who I was and reconcile her with the me that I am. I may not love my body, I may not love how I act at times, but overall I'm in like with me.

That's pretty remarkable if I do say so myself. It brings me to point number 2.

I've grown up. Apparently, somewhere along the way I learned a thing or two. I'm still petty, still whiny, still easily hurt...I still regret decisions and waver when I'm bound to take them. But somehow, something inside me knew that in order to move forward, I had to look back.

I feel sorry for those who feel they need to repress what they've done, who they have been. I think I'm getting to the point where I don't care. I don't need you to judge me. I don't need your approval. As such, kindly go step near the edge of a cliff and I'll be sure to make you take that last step.

Now all this may change in 5.2 minutes. Somehow I'm okay with that. Because at this moment, this particular wrinkle in time, I know who I am.

Y tu, quien carajo eres?

Sooooooo...I can't write a novel. I can't write period. But I enjoy it, and I often times get the itch to do so. So, inspired by Nanowrimo I decided to write. I'd actually written a few of these before. As you can see there's a lot of love drama in my life recently :P

Look what I made for you.
Empty home, silent room, a child awaits in all the gloom.
Sitting, waiting, hoping, wishing,
To please his mother his only mission.
Dingy, dirty, empty dishes
They pile so high like a mountain of wishes.
But mom's not coming home tonight
She's gone to find what makes her feel right.
She's found it somewhere in an alley.
There she is, and there she'll stay.
Look mommy, look what I made.

( Clicky for poems )

I remember a time where I lived off the internet. Not too long ago mind you. My life was literally connected to the internet and I to a computer. My social life largely consisted of going online and chatting with friends.

Things have changed. Sometimes I really really miss the chatting and remember that time really fondly.  I always miss my friends and likely always will...Gin, Ty, Bre, Jo, Luna, Shinny, Draco...and others I used to chat so much with TJ, Ann, Jads, Osiris, Guy...it's hard to keep up a connection though. Every relationship has to be two sided, I learned that when you're always the one that seeks someone out the relationship changes, gets rusty.  I visualize it as a road, a huge road trip where you're riding along and meet up in the middle, if you're the only one driving you eventually run out of gas.

Sometimes I come online and don't even remember what I used to do so much! What sites so you guys visit?

Anyway, here I am waxing philosophical. I am pooped after a day at the beach, even though I took a nap :P

...and I just can't hide it!!

Guuuuuuuuuuuuuuys! As of next Wednesday I will be home alone. I'm looking forward to this so much. Not because I am going to trash the house or have a wild party, quite the opposite I shall be cleaning and making with the tidy, but I'm going to be having the house to myself and access to a car. Independence how I've missed you.

Plus let's be honest, it's easier for me to stay out all night and be naughty if there's no one waiting up for me.

I'll probably do nothing but be silly in my underwear but I'll be independently doing so...woohooo!

I haven't written in a while. I haven't even logged on in ages! I guess I wanted to step back a bit from who I'd been and go back to who I was while trying to know who I am. It's very confusing :P I also didn't have time what with moving to my grandpa's (where there is no internet woe!), work and life in general.

I feel really different though. A lot has happened while not really.

My most exciting news is that I'm going to the Killers concert on November 11th. I absolutely cannot wait.

In other news a friend tagged me in an old picture on Facebook that made me do a double take. I've lost a hefty amount of weight (About 70lbs) and I'm glad for it. I've still got a ways to go but I'm at a healthy place so I'm good with myself. Now if only I could get someone to sponsor me at buying a new wardrobe :P It gets pretty pricey pretty quick!

Hey my lovey doveys!!

I miss you LJ peeps tons and tons. I've been AWOL, as I'm admittedly wont to do from time to time, for far too long!! I don't think I can even attempt to catch up on all your posts so tell me if anything new has happened in your lives!! I take this opportunity to congratulate any births, weddings, new jobs, new study, etc news and to mourn any losses with you.

Life...has been crazy recently. 98.9% of the crazyness has been of a good variety. I've been very busy with the new job and moving out of my mom's house which has proven to be a hard hard transition. Not so much for me though :P Except for the fact that I've no internet at my new place I am ready to move there permanently.

I've been going out quite a lot with old friends and new work chums, so that's been eating up my online time when I AM somewhere with access to the net.

My best friend is getting married and I'm the maid of honor so we've had to put our planning hats on and make with the wedding plans. I've also had to put my counselor hat on since the bride and groom have been having loads of problems.

In other news, I'm now wearing size 9 jeans! Yay me! But my weight keeps fluctuating between 140-145 and while I understand that weight does fluctuate it makes me cranky :P

All in all I'm really good. I've realized a lot of things, and noticed some others that I was too blind to see before and I'm making plans to change some details of my life. Getting rid of toxic people who only manipulate one and keeping all the good people who love me for me. Life is good and I'm living it up.

So that's what's going on in my neck of the woods....what's up with all of you??? What music is on your MP3 players???

Comment with your song of the moment!! Mine is Stay by Safetysuit...why...I dunno...I love it though!!

Love you all <3

I saw Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. I don't think I've read of anyone getting really emotional about it. But I did. I know I read too much into it, and overthought a lot but man! I laughed, I cried, I squee'd, I got angry...hahaha. It was quite an experience.

The only drawback was that I had to see it uncomfortably close to the screen...I was in the 6th row and it was a bit dizzying but that's not too bad, it gives me an excuse to see it again :P

( When and why I cried... )</div></div>

So my new job is going really well, thankfully! Basically just waiting to get my first paycheck to be able to pay some bills and buy myself some proper work shirts :P

So...you know you love it when I post randomness!

*They have not, as of yet, closed down the theaters. Which means, for now, that I'm probably going to be able to see HBP soon! I'm SO excited!!

*My new job is going great and the guys I'm training with are AWESOME. I don't think I've ever laughed more in the workplace. I'm the only girl which is a bit odd since all the jobs I've ever had have had a female male ratio of 5:1. But being the only girl makes them all extra protective of me and I'm the youngest too so I'm the princess.

*A friend is sending me lots of awesome music right now which makes me happeeeeeee! I love music guys. Rec me anything and everything!

*Family Guy...sometimes you ROCK. Just watched the episode where they sing from Sound of Music.

*A story for you to point and mock me: I came in the door today and the dog came in right behind me. He can't be inside right now because the table where the tv is at is unstable so he (being a bulldog) will likely bump into the table and all will be lost. I start running after him to put him out. He makes me run around the kitchen island three times after him until I get mad, kick off my heels and tell him I'm going to open a can of whoop ass on him and then....and then my pants, which are a bit big on me, slipped, and I slipped on them and fell...now my tail bone, hip and knee hurt.

*I got a kick ass Ron shirt from Hot Topic.

*I can't wait for my movie date with capitu =P

I think this is about the greatest idea in the history of ever!

Hello darlings!!

I have been asked to write articles for a website...potentially for profit if they are good enough. I am very interested in this wacky profit idea which is why I need YOUR help! What would you guys like to read about? I've been given carte blanche on the topics and the website houses articles that range from novice (moi) to expert, Doctoral level writers.

Some of my topics thus far include (most were strongly encouraged by the site):

• Immigration. Trying to get into Canada legally.
• Graduating College in Today's Economy
• The Price of Fashion
• Youth and Technology

So...yeah...any ideas? They all seem to have been done so many many times! What do you want to know about?

In other news? I'm so sleepy I could die.

Hola hola,

I'm sooooo tired. I spent the better part of the afternoon window shopping with my mom, lil sister and brother, and a friend and I am pooped. I don't usually love window shopping, but being that I am broke, Puerto Rico is hot, and the mall has a/c full blast it was a good activity. It also helped me get an idea of what I want/need for when I do get some money. It was also fun just to have girl time (my poor brother...though he did drag us to about 5 video game stores).

I fit into size 11 jeans today. Skinny jeans I might add (I don't usually go for that style but it had an awesome flared leg). Ten years ago, when I was 14, I wore size 13 jeans...the fact that I'm skinnier at 24 than when I was 14 boggles my mind. If I'd had any money I would have snagged those jeans if only because they were 11 and made my butt look perky :P

Now I have to go get ready for a BBQ...joy!


Dear Mr Journey's sales associate: I'm sorry I didn't buy anything and made you waste your time, but thank you for complimenting my style and hitting on me. It gave me quite a confidence boost.

Eta: Omg! I just found out from shocolate . Poor Rupert!! *pets him and nurses him back to health*

So I spent a big chunk of the day at my friend's music store. He is trying to buy my violin off of me but I can't seem to part with it as it was one of the first big purchases I made for myself. But that's neither here nor there. While in his music store I got to play around with all the shiny toys...erm...I mean instruments.

He taught me a chunk of Ode to Joy, and I played a bit of Unchained Melody on the piano by reading the music!

I learned something very important today...

Guitar Hero has taught me absolutely ZIPPO about playing a guitar. However, I did find my drumming was pretty good. I think Guitar Hero has helped my sense of rhythm and tempo! Who said you can't learn anything from video games? And after a while I was doing pretty good on the bass as well.

It was so embarrassing because customers came in and they looked at me like..."What are you doing child? My eardrums hurt!" But this really nice guy came when I was playing the bass and started to tell me how to strum it properly so w00t!

I am in a very musical mood right now, as is to be expected, so rec me music!! I don't need download links, just the title of a song so I can Youtube it will do.

Also, I found another song I quite relate to the Winchester Boys of SPN The Boys are Back in Town.

I was doing laundry and watching tv a little while ago and I the sounds from the Harry Potter trailer caught my attention. It was a slightly one that I hadn't seen fully so I sat down to watch it and something funny happened.

That old feeling that I used to associate with Harry Potter, a feeling in the pit of my belly that is undeniable excitement came over me. I hadn't had that feeling since the series ended...or truthfully, since Terminus. It's a feeling completely tied to Harry Potter that I LOVE. It slapped me in the face that I'm actually REALLY looking forward to the next movie. For no other reason in particular than it's Harry Potter and it makes me happy.

Every time one of the books came out, or one of the movies I used to get this way and it's honestly the greatest feeling in the world and I'm glad to have it back.

In other news, it's obnoxiously hot here in Puerto Rico. Seriously hot. Fry an egg on the sidewalk hot. I am not amused by this.

Also, I got Robin Hood Men in Tights for $3, I love finding awesome deals like that.

Now, off to read and cool off a bit!

Hello everyone!

I have more books for sale! If you didn't see my post before please visit it now and look at all the awesome stuff I'm selling.

1. Gingerbread by Rachel Cohn

2. Kleppner's Advertising Procedure

3. Frankenstein by Mary Shelley

4. Fix by Leslie Margolis

5. Os Cus de Judas (Portuguese) by Antonio Lobo Antunes

6. Cien Cepilladas Antes de Dormir (Spanish) by Melissa P

7. Meditaciones de Marco Aurelio (Spanish)

I'm also selling an old school Game Boy Color w/ games for $25.

If you're interested leave me a comment!

Hello dear f-list,

I come to you a very broke woman. But a broke woman with sellable items!! In this post you will find books galore (everything from university text books to Romance novels, to YA fiction.), purses, toys, etc.

Please browse through my items and let me know if there's anything you are interested in. I'm willing to negotiate!

I take paypal and there's a fee of $4 for shipping in the US (negotiable as well, depending where you are)

BOOKS (If you are interested in a specific book, we could make a package for a lower price!!)


( Portuguese: )


( French )
( Literature )

( Theatre )
( Communications (Advertising/Public Relations) )( Fiction: )
( Romance )

ACCESSORIES
( Accessories )

GAMES
( Games )
MUSIC
( Music )

MISCELLANEOUS:

Small Wooden Urn $8

I hope you guys find something you want!

So I just found out that there are talks of another Buffy the Vampire Slayer movie. A movie which will not star Sarah Michelle Gellar or any actors from the show. This is very disappointing news. Will I watch it? Only time will tell...(and you know, if the trailer looks good or not).

I am here to pronounce my love for Adam Lambert once again, when I see him in interviews I know he is truly meant to be a star he speaks SO well and he sidesteps potentially awkward scenarios with such grace! The elephant in the room question at a recent interview *gigglesnort* I mean really, who does that? Okay, probably a LOT of artist but I'm just starry eyed right now.

lord_harrymort you know what we are going to try to do come August in the concert? We are going to try to meet Adam and Danny (Kris...eh, if we get lucky) I don't know where, or how, confused about why as well :P but we are going to try to meet them. Even if we have to wait by the stage door for hours. okay okay, maybe not, but a girl can dream!

Finally, I'm a girl with a plan. I am broke, and as of yesterday even broker, so I've been compiling a list of things to sell on ebay. I have around 20-25 fiction books + around 20 text and reference books, a gameboy color with two games, a pretty green dress sniff, a couple of purses and possibly my Canon EOS camera...I love it but I've not used it in forever. That's mainly because I've been lazy and haven't gotten around to buying the lithium batteries it needs but I think right now I need to worry about making money more than spending it.

I'm also thinking of offering you guys crafts, ie bookmarks, knitted things, possibly a tote bag...I truly don't know as I really am not crafty at all but I have to do SOMETHING.

So yeah, I shall spam you guys with links to my ebay when it's up.

Which is wrong in many many levels.

I'm choosing to believe he's already a star since he got to perform with KISS. Kiss!! Really, he didn't need to win and now he's free of the oppressiveness of Idol.

Well done Adam Lambert!